Procrastination

I have been procrastinating doing homework for a while. *Feel so sad and guilty*

It is true that I have been busy around. This May is quite unexpected. By the end of April, I was preparing myself to take the first full-time job. Now, at the end of May, I am working on the biggest and most dangerous decision of my life.

Talking with my friends and acquaintances, I am getting used to see their shocked faces. Thinking about throwing a "surprise party" and announcing the news ;).

Slowly, my friends will go working and leave. I will be stuck in here for a next couple of months. Hope that it won't drive me crazy.

People advice me on patience, strong-mindedness, motivation, and confidence. I don't have any of them. I'm lazy, emotion-driven, weak, undisciplined.

Haizz, I unofficially graduate college by the end of this May. I guess that the time where I could be lazy, spontaneous, emotion-driven, and procrastinated is over.

Goodbye May 2013, the world. Congratulations to all college graduates this year! Hope you can get a job or a place at graduate school soon. 

My crazy week is over

Last Sunday, I have made an important decision after 3 phone conversations. Then I spent the whole week running.

Life is unpredictable. 6 months ago, I couldn’t picture about what I am doing today. And today, I cannot imagine what I will be doing 6 months later, either. It seems like everything can change in 6 months.

I’ve just realized that even the closest people in my life cannot help me solve my problems. Parents, best friends, beloved relatives, teachers, acquaintances can give me their advices and guidance; yet they cannot make decisions for me. As I grow older, I understand the sayings of Buddha:

“No one saves us but ourselves

No one can and no one may

We ourselves must walk the path.”

So even if life is a combination of endless struggles, it's ok, keep walking.